So here it is

So here it is

How is everybody doing? good I hope

Sometimes I worry about my friends,

...

well

if you

knew them

you would too

Fine -you got me  

Stop yelling at me, I am getting on with it.

I'll stop running around the bush now (or the page).  I will no longer hide what is really going on here.

I'm heartbroken.



It is odd to think about, why am I heartbroken? Why should I be heartbroken? Could it be that there was more in there that wasn't accounted for?  

Or is it something else...

           My heart certainly aches, but its been doing that for a long time now. I'm talking about emotional pain, the kind bards talk of.

      

            For some reason I want her back, now I understand that after most break ups the first thing people want to do is get back together. The other curiosity is I was the one who broke up with her, and to make matters worse now its New Years Eve and everybody is partying and getting wasted and doing things they wouldn't do when they're sober. If she is heartbroken also maybe she would try to bury the pain by drinking too much and chasing after all the guy's. and she's single, that's what single people do. Now I have no "official documentation" to stop her seeing as I am no longer her boyfriend. 

           

                The way I see it is I have a few options:

1. Walk away.
2. Worry endlessly through out the night losing a vast majority of sleep, to bring in the New Year.
3. Work on a new song on the guitar that might win her back.
4. Call her talk to her for about 3 1/2 mins - until my Skype money runs out. (don't even know what I would say.)
5. Hope for the best and go to sleep.

Not sure what I'm going to do as of right now. But I'm sure you'll find out later whatever the case.

~Cameron

monkey's are cool

hope you enjoy the video christina made of me and her.

Learing the blue's

its funny my life started getting harder as soon as i started learning these.....strange huh?

LIfe at College

sorry guys for the laziness of my more recent blogs, But I've had the urge to show you stuff instead of tell you stuff, like pics, and today its national video day. (...as far as Cam's Weekly Show is concerned)

I was trying to get her to say hi or something, but to no avail.

when boredom happens

this was my lunch today, its fairly average lunch sandwich and a drink.

I actually almost cut this video, its long, bad sound quality, but I decided to keep it because Its a concert that the school put on for us, (that do this about 2x a week) this one is of a raper and a Cello, its a way of combining modern art with classical music. their performance was really cool, that's why I tried to record it, but as you can tell, not very well.

as you all hopefully figured out, I got a guitar for my birthday. (i know 2 months early)

more video's on the way, this was just for shits.

Keep reading and posting Dammit.

~Cameron

&...

Before.

After.

Skype

I don't know if you all know about Skype, but it is a FREE way to communicate, Skype to skype is free, (i have skype) so if you gents were to get it we could talk all the time, you guy's could see when I'm online Instant msging, video chat if both party's have a web cam, ect. i actually put money twards it so i can use it as my make-shift cell phone, but it only works when i have an internet connection.

my point is, go and download skype, then we could all stay in better touch.

this msg has been approved the the department of labor.

this is by far the most important post scince the last one i posted!

now that i have your attention I feel it is my duty as a good friend to skip all that small talk on why its been so long since my last post, .... its not important!

what is important however, is that Chuck that's right, chuck has moved on to season 4 episode one aired last week and tomorrow will be season 4 episode two! i hope your all keeping up on it, i know you all have way more important things to do, so i just thought I'd remind you and then threaten you to watch it. .... cool its working.



so i am taking
Math (yuk)
English (easy!)
Drama (fun)
Computer Information Systems (boring)
and
Guitar Lessions again (yay)

as you can see their is a mix of emotions on this semester,

oh ya ... i think I'm going to post a few pics so you guys can see what my world is like:

these first few are just a couple of the crazy people i see on the bus sometimes, see i still spend 3 hours a day on the bus so see some interesting things.

ah yes, the one your all worried about, DON'T BE CRAZY!!!! he's my nephew

looky looky this was the 4th of July!

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