Friday, December 31, 2010

So here it is

So here it is

How is everybody doing? good I hope

Sometimes I worry about my friends,

...
well
if you
knew them
you would too

Fine -you got me  

Stop yelling at me, I am getting on with it.


I'll stop running around the bush now (or the page).  I will no longer hide what is really going on here.

I'm heartbroken.

It is odd to think about, why am I heartbroken? Why should I be heartbroken? Could it be that there was more in there that wasn't accounted for?  
Or is it something else...

           My heart certainly aches, but its been doing that for a long time now. I'm talking about emotional pain, the kind bards talk of.
      
            For some reason I want her back, now I understand that after most break ups the first thing people want to do is get back together. The other curiosity is I was the one who broke up with her, and to make matters worse now its New Years Eve and everybody is partying and getting wasted and doing things they wouldn't do when they're sober. If she is heartbroken also maybe she would try to bury the pain by drinking too much and chasing after all the guy's. and she's single, that's what single people do. Now I have no "official documentation" to stop her seeing as I am no longer her boyfriend. 
           
                The way I see it is I have a few options:
  1. Walk away.
  2. Worry endlessly through out the night losing a vast majority of sleep, to bring in the New Year.
  3. Work on a new song on the guitar that might win her back.
  4. Call her talk to her for about 3 1/2 mins - until my Skype money runs out. (don't even know what I would say.)
  5. Hope for the best and go to sleep.
Not sure what I'm going to do as of right now. But I'm sure you'll find out later whatever the case.

~Cameron

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

monkey's are cool



hope you enjoy the video christina made of me and her.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Learing the blue's

its funny my life started getting harder as soon as i started learning these.....strange huh?

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

LIfe at College



sorry guys for the laziness of my more recent blogs, But I've had the urge to show you stuff instead of tell you stuff, like pics, and today its national video day. (...as far as Cam's Weekly Show is concerned)
I was trying to get her to say hi or something, but to no avail.


when boredom happens

this was my lunch today, its fairly average lunch sandwich and a drink.


I actually almost cut this video, its long, bad sound quality, but I decided to keep it because Its a concert that the school put on for us, (that do this about 2x a week) this one is of a raper and a Cello, its a way of combining modern art with classical music. their performance was really cool, that's why I tried to record it, but as you can tell, not very well.

as you all hopefully figured out, I got a guitar for my birthday. (i know 2 months early)


more video's on the way, this was just for shits.


Keep reading and posting Dammit.
~Cameron

Friday, October 8, 2010

&...

Before.
After.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Skype

I don't know if you all know about Skype, but it is a FREE way to communicate, Skype to skype is free, (i have skype) so if you gents were to get it we could talk all the time, you guy's could see when I'm online Instant msging, video chat if both party's have a web cam, ect. i actually put money twards it so i can use it as my make-shift cell phone, but it only works when i have an internet connection.

my point is, go and download skype, then we could all stay in better touch.

this msg has been approved the the department of labor.

Monday, September 27, 2010

this is by far the most important post scince the last one i posted!

now that i have your attention I feel it is my duty as a good friend to skip all that small talk on why its been so long since my last post, .... its not important!

what is important however, is that Chuck that's right, chuck has moved on to season 4 episode one aired last week and tomorrow will be season 4 episode two! i hope your all keeping up on it, i know you all have way more important things to do, so i just thought I'd remind you and then threaten you to watch it. .... cool its working.



so i am taking
Math (yuk)
English (easy!)
Drama (fun)
Computer Information Systems (boring)
and
Guitar Lessions again (yay)

as you can see their is a mix of emotions on this semester,

oh ya ... i think I'm going to post a few pics so you guys can see what my world is like:

these first few are just a couple of the crazy people i see on the bus sometimes, see i still spend 3 hours a day on the bus so see some interesting things.



ah yes, the one your all worried about, DON'T BE CRAZY!!!! he's my nephew


looky looky this was the 4th of July!

 the end

yay

i posted a blog!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Something Wicked this way comes

in a strange turn of events, i find myself slacking in school just a little too much, (still getting "A's and now some "B's" ) and i keep trying to turn up my application of school, but it is summer semester and because of its high speed and limited amount of time in the semester it is notorious for being difficult as all the same information is crammed in a shorter time period. never the less i cannot allow myself to relax to much. I quit smoking this time i lasted a week, well I've only had 2 smokes in the last week. with all the stress, I feel as tho i can justify it. but if i do, i will not go where i want to go in this life.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

got bored

got bored, updated my blog background. got a 3.74 GPA last semester, got an award and everything for it, haven't had grades like this since like 2nd grade, realized its allot easier to get "A's" than i thought it was.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Down with the Sickness

hey guy's whats up!

just me your friendly comic relief to life, just sitting here enjoying the dork-butt of cam's existence, wondering when the "next" Madden voyage to the ice cube tray is going to be! lol,

haha got you to smile,
oh speaking of old memories, look on Jordan's blog to get the link to a video we filmed .... along time ago, but its just as funny if not funnier today! i watched it about ... 5x and then i made a short-cut to the video on my desktop! on day's i might need an extra smile, its not a bad idea if you wanted to steal it.... the link on desktop idea, no one should steal.

look at that i got you to smile again, damn cam (rhymes for a reason) your on a roll today!

so i got another "a" on my math test today, i think i got the highest score in my class, I am the only one who asked questions.

oh oh, my philosophy class is incredible, so much deeper thought involved, the teacher speaks Russian, so i couldn't understand him the first day, but now i have his heavy accent down. he's really really smart.

my music collection/vocabulary has increased alot in the last 6 months, and i like it. i find myself listening to all walks/sounds of music.

but hey i have to get off the Frontrunner now, so I'll catch you all later ... and remember- Stay Tuned! Promise? good

Cameron

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

A Rockstar is Born.

so i had my first guitar lessions today.


i think im going to really enjoy playing the guitar.








a friend of mine too this pic.


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

So....

Hey Guy's whats up?

just finished Spring semester got all "A's" last time i had grades like that was in second grade but i just did it again! yay. just picked up my text books for Summer semester (my math book is huge!) and now I'm bringing them back to center. yay.

enjoyed my mother's day weekend, went to visit my mom of course, rode my bikes all weekend (for the second weekend in a row) this is my week off so I've just been hanging out all over Utah all week, sleeping in and such.

stay tuned~
Cameron

Thursday, April 22, 2010

This Just in...

oh by the way...

i decided to update my blog also,

here's whats new,

1.when you stop by to catch the latest episodes of Cam's weekly shoe don't forget to feed my fish, you'll notice them on the side of my blog, they really like your mouse, and if you click, you'll deposit some food in their tank.

2. if you give Cam's weekly show a shout out, ex: "Janessa said "SAM SAYS:CAM I LOVE YOU" I'll be sure to give you some time on the next show. think of it like back stage tickets!

3. i renamed a bunch of the norm's, like comments aren't comments any more, so look around.

Bitches

you know, sometimes bitches just need to know when to shut the fuck up. not trying to be mean or anything. they just cant seem to ever shut up for more than five minutes, they think everyone gives a shit what they think, the're goals and values, what people they think are attractive, THEN when they run out of that kind of shit to talk about they start talking about how the're last period was-just discusting, fucked up things.


so heres the skinny. there's these girls that might consider themselves my friends sitting accross the table trying to piss me off at breakfast, one interupted me ... 5 times, (i counted) until i finnaly told her to learn how to close her face. she wasn't too happy but the only word in my mind at the time.... "Priceless" if girls only knew how much more guy's would like them if they could shut up from time to time.

GIRLS try this, next time your with a guy that you like, talk to him for a little bit, then just be quiet, try hard, but to do this correctly your going to have to shut up for atleast 30 mins. don't ignore him or anything, like if he askes you something, (don't want him to think something is wrong with you/bothering you or somthing) just enjoy the quiet.

i understand its heathly to have in depth conversations, but its just as healthy to shut up half the time too,

Cheppel said it best, "cosmo say's there is 100 ways to please your man, but that list is wrong, b/c it was writen by a woman"
"that list is 4 things long.
1. suck his dick.
2. play with his balls.
3. make him a sandwhitch.
4. talk less."

this is all about rule number 4.


Stay tuned~
Cameron

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Updates-got to love them

so i figured I'd give you all an update on my life,

so i don't really like my film instructor he's kinda ... retarded. way to liberal, comes to class like a five year old dressed him, (blue running pants, (you know the nylon ones) green turtle neck tucked in of course, a Barrett, with a suit jacket (to look professional of course)) procrastinates so much where i don't fell like i have to.

oh i bought a new hacky sac yesterday its green and better than my other hacky's. more expensive but i think it will last longer, my other ones keep getting holes in them from me playing too much. I'm starting to get pretty good now, i think there is only one other person on center that's close to my skill level and i only see him on Friday's. usually i will walk into a circle of people playing hack and as soon as i get the hack, i might do a trick or two just to warm up, then two or three people will leave the circle claiming that their not good enough to play with me even after i urge them to stay and play.

any time i ask a question in my math class, my instructor (professor) will go off and take up two white broads to explain it, of course this just confuses me further- and i have an A in the class so i can't imagine how lost the rest of the class is.

oh mike moved into Scott's room so they could do "UFC" (ultimate fighting challenge) more often. so i hang out in there more and place bets on who's going to win. I'm starting to make some serious money doing this.

i can finally sign up for classes for summer semester, so I'm going to take guitar lesions. its something I've always wanted to get better at and now i can for free. i only have to take 9 credit hours (3 classes) so outside of guitar, and i know i have to take another math, but I'm not sure what i want my 3rd class to be.... any suggestions?

i still look forward to every Tuesday, "new-booty-Tuesday" so i can easily convince the new guy's to play me halo, he he.... is that wrong? "hi welcome to job corps.... let me stomp your ass at halo" it never gets old.

what can i say about the college life... there are beautiful girls everywhere... my first two weeks of school my neck was sore from looking around too much... but i finally set my sights on ... one or two... there both in my reading class, one is outrageously beautiful and really smart too, (she's a college girl what do you expect) we had lunch a few times together and along with a dozen or so chemistry filled conversations. but with her schedule i don't know how well it will work out, I'm really busy and so is she. which brings me to girl number 2. arguably more beautiful, she's a white girl from Hawaii, and just like me has a really complex family. every time i walk up to say hi to her she has this rather addicting smile if i do say so myself, so i tell her jokes just to get more of that smile. our schedules are fairly similar so if this was to go to the next level i think it would work out. lucky me!

i seem to be going threw gear really quickly, for example i just bought this new pair of shoes, and 4 months later there already starting to get holes in them. ... oh well.

i spent the weekend with my parents this last weekend, I'm still amazed at how intelligent my father is, anytime i need advice he is right there and can tell me how the whole situation is going to play out and what side to be on when it does. i am progressing so much faster because of him.

oh Brady came back from his mission last weekend, i didn't say hi, but i saw him, figured he hadn't seen his family for 2 years and i didn't want to bug him.

Job corps drama rages on... as does life, but I'm really starting to get used to it.

Stay tuned~
Cameron

Friday, April 2, 2010

Sometimes

sometimes, we look at life differently,
sometimes, we make decisions we normally wouldn't make.
sometimes we over react,
sometimes we over analyze,
sometimes we know the right choice before the question is done being asked,
sometimes we know what we want to be like as a child,
sometimes we let others get the best of us.
sometimes we don't think things through,
sometimes we eat too much candy.
sometimes we forget to brush our teeth,
sometimes life is harder than it should be,
sometimes we're too late,
sometimes we miss our bus,
sometimes we run out of matching socks,
sometimes we need to walk around barefoot,
sometimes we need to look at ourselves in the mirror,
sometimes we need to give advice to a friend,
sometimes we need to tell our parents that they were right,
sometimes we need to find new friends,
sometimes we need to blog,
sometimes we need to find a different place to eat,
sometimes we need to listen to a favorite song,
sometimes we need to prank our friends,
sometimes we need to blow our noses,
sometimes we need to play in the backyard with our family,
sometimes we need to tell those around us that we love them,
sometimes we need to sleep-in,
sometimes we just need to buy something that looks cool,
sometimes we need to save money,
sometimes we do need to study,
sometimes we need to just quit a bad habit,
sometimes we need to be alone,
sometimes its important to remember "we got lucky",
sometimes its good to be wrong,
sometimes you just know your going to win,
sometimes its good to start fires,
sometimes we need to act silly,
sometimes its OK to spend 30 minutes in the shower,
sometimes its important to catch the hidden meaning behind every episode of Cam's Weekly Show,
sometimes his show is weekly,
sometimes its good to remember the "sometimes' " .


most the time we need to get advice,
most the time we're going to fail,
most the time we need to do the right thing,
most the time we need to remember to laugh,
most the time we should wear clothes,
most the time we need to hold on to those we care about,
most the time our feet really do stink,
most the time we can't be on the computer,
most the time we need to remember to smile,
most the time we need to blame our farts on others,
most the time we need to really forgive our enemies,
most the time we need to act older than our age yet younger than our pant size (in men's),
most the time we should know when to be serious,
most the time we going to need spell check,
most the time we need to do our homework,
most the time its funny to laugh at others,
most the time our parents are right on the money,
most the time people don't like being flashed,
most the time we need to use our heads,
most the time i don't like running,
most the time people think everyone else dances weird (then they see me!),
most the time its important to hang around people that want you to succeed,
most the time we really do catch other people picking their noses,
most the time we need to have a good attitude,
most the time its important to remember these key words "don't get caught",
most the time its important to know that eighty-five percent of what comes out of Cameron's mouth is complete bullshit (as far as jokes are concerned, when he's talking to you he's usually honest),
most the time life is what you make it,
most the time we know who we want to be when we grow up,
Most the time we should never forget something that once made us smile.

always life is meant to be enjoyed not just endured,
always we need to chose how our day will go,
always its important to remember that safety comes first,
always we need to remember the good times,
always we need to learn from the bad times,
always we need to stand up for what we believe in,
always its important to take a second and watch the flowers bloom,
always is a good word to use when describing love,
always we need to tie our shoes (safety first),
always we should consider both sides to the argument,
always we should buy otter pops,
always almost always says a lot,
always was tricky to spell a long time ago,
always remember the "ice cube tray's Madden voyage",
always is how long your true friends will be there for you,
always is like forever,
always is like how long you will like smores,
always is how long god loves you,
always is spelled with an "a",
always remember what your fighting for,
always do the right thing,
always use your turn signal,
always look in your rear view mirror when stopping at an intersection(in case of Dee),
always enjoy candy,
always enjoy life,
ALWAYS stay tuned
Never take no for an answer when you want something bad enough, never gamble with things you care about, never use the word never, never speed into a police station, never set your house on fire, never touch the stove, never forget good memories, never sleep on a rock, never lie to someone you care about, Never Eat Soggy Waffles, never die alone, never have regrets, never watch crappy movies, never plagiarize, never stay up all night blogging..., never chew on candy that has been on the ground,
Never let something go that you love.....Never.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Sorry

well guy's i finnaly pulled my head out of my ass. I thought i knew who my friends where but i was wrong. you guy's are my friends. this last weekend i learned alot about some of the people i hang out with. didn't really like what i found out. everyone on center still comes and finds me everytime they can't figure out how to tie there shoes or something. every little problem.

anyway the point of this WHOLE blog is to say im sorry to my friends. thanks again for being pationt with me. i've been eratic, irrational, phyco, bi-polar. (sort of) anyway but my point is that you guy's didn't diserve any of it.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

ok ok, fine

im sick if this shit

First things first- Cori, i tryed, i can't be your friend, i guess im still "emotionaly compromised" perhaps more time is needed before we can try to be friends again. ya i know it takes me a long time to recover from these things.


i don't know i find myself really pissed almost for no reason, is it the people im around? or the stress level from things. i don't know. but im giving up on alot of my friends both here at Job Corps, and outside of Job Corps. now. i just need some time to myself guy's, so i may not talk to any of you for a little while. don't take any offense.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

V day? and various other events...

so here i sit empty hearted, i came to shit but only farted..
this quote seems to fit me lol

my valentines day was the same as any other year, .... ya

college is really fun. but really busy, yesterday in my film class i got assigned a 2 page paper on comedy, and another 2 page paper on my critic review of the movie "the blind side" Sandra bullock's
latest film. the main reason behind my instructor picking this one was because some critic's have given this movie 5 stars and others have given it none. so as a film class naturally he wanted our take on it. .... (sarcastic yay)but i definitely think I'm enjoying myself, i have strait "A's" (i am more shocked than you) the food is better than Job Corps, and its all free because i am still a Job Corp student, ya its a pretty sweet deal, outside of getting up at 4:30am but I'll get over it. the girls are definitely better looking than Job Corp, and the best part! i get to be off center all day.

its funny yesterday i bought a new mouse for my computer its really cool and glows blue! alas its also the day i realized i am somehow missing my flash drive... you know the one with some homework on it... ya that's the one.

so about a week ago i started reading The Catcher and the Rye i think most kids read it in high school there senior year but i was never a senior and i have never read it. lucky me? maybe. i am about one hundred and fifty pages into the damn thing and he hasn't done anything yet. the book only goes to two-sixty so i think its going to have a dramatic conclusion... or not.

also i realized some friends i thought i had... i really don't. by the way, this is good news, i am glad i found this out now, before any real damage could occur. i wasn't nearly as surprised to learn this as i thought i would be.

i started listening to hard rock during my math homework instead of classical... i think its helping, by about problem fifty i am really angry at my homework, i can't figure out if i am getting it done faster or slower... i think i might make the switch back tho, (not like its a big decision) so this last weekend my itunes on my computer went from 32 songs to 198! i feel like i have all this music now.

why do people do that? act like making a switch in there life is such a fucking big deal? life is about making changes, some you like.. others you don't, so you make the changes that will allow you to attain "true happiness" if that's success for some people, if its just starting a family for others if its living alone and just reading books all day, everyone is different. Unfortunately my interpretation of "true happiness" didn't make this last list of interesting interpretations. but I'll know when i have it.

all and all I'm having fun. i miss hanging out with "the gang" but i understand your all busy, i know i am.

Stay Tuned~
Cameron.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

not to get you all confused or anything

a little while ago... i started working on another Cam's weekly show, and every time i wanted to blog, i just added to it sort of like a Private journal that i didn't publish. .... anyway so it may seem like i haven't been blogging, i just haven't been posting. i plan to post this "massive" rather hysterical some what cold hearted, cruel, shocking realistic grasp on my view of reality right now. it somewhat nice to some people, its very rough on others, that's why i haven't posted it yet... I'm not ready for that wave of drama. not like you guy's cant get over it and let me post what ever the FUCK i want. but we should all jump on our periods from time to time and bitch about everything. ((ya right) i hope at least some of you can sense the overwhelming amount of sarcasm in that last sentence) this is my "pre-emtive strike" before i post my blog and if people are getting pissed at this one... oh, "they have no idea"

stay tuned if you have nothing better to do.
Cameron

Monday, January 18, 2010

Cam's Weekly Show

Cam's weekly show? what the hell happened?


my weekly show that some people looked forward to, turned into Cam's monthly show.... then cam's occasional show...


then before i know it... shit just hit the fan

hours have turned into seconds, i don't have time to do the things i want to do, i don't have time to play pool on center anymore, i don't have time to play hacky sac anymore. even in the Marine Corp i still had time to play hacky sac. so i try and try to get this blog going even on a weekly basis, i just can't seem to do it. so forgive me for not having time, its not that i don't care about you guy's its simply a matter of the large load on my plate.

let me tell you about my average day
for example:
wake up at 4:30am
shower from 4:30am - 4:45am
get ready from 4:45am - 5:00am
eat from 5:00am - 5:30am
catch my bus to school at 5:30am
get to SLCC at 7:00am
prep for my classes from 7:00am - 9:00am
go to my first class is from 9:00am - 9:50am - Math
passing period is from 9:50am - 10:00am
my next class is from 10:00am - 10:50am - Writing
then my classes are done, at least for Monday, Wednesday, and Friday
i have a different set on Tuesday and Thursday, there both longer classes but they end at 12:20am.
i eat lunch from 11:00am - about 11:30am i eat while im walking to the library to do homework, i can't afford to take that much time to myself.
do home work from 11:30am - 2:30pm
catch the bus back at 2:30pm - 5:45pm long .. fun ride... (ya right)
run to catch dinner which ends at 6:00pm
rush to get stuff done on center by 9:00pm
group at 9:30pm - 10:00pm
try to get to bed by 12:00am but sometimes it turns into 1:00am
just to get up at a few hours later, ....
just to.... realize i cant type what i want to type, (wouldn't want to piss anyone off) so ... the end