so i have this problem...

as some of you know i originally started blogging to help with square cravings, a brill ant idea cooked up by Jorden, (thanks again). but you see, not that I HAVE OFFICIALLY QUIT SMOKING CIGARETTES i have no idea what to blog about, maybe something will come to me, but i cant think of a worse hell than to have to read about me ramble on about how my world is interesting, fun or boring, and those that do read this deserve a medal. so if anyone wants to leave a comment on what i should blog about that would be cool, cuz im none just blogging when i have cravings, witch I'll still have. but as far as actually smoking:im done.

Breaking the Habbit

"so here i sit empty hearted had to shit but only farted" this is an interesting way to start a "blog" you might think, it started as i joke i told commonly to friends but after some drunk thoughts i have come to realize the truth, somethings don't happen the way you want them to be, no matter how badly you want them. This is not the case when it comes to smoking cigarettes. after having my first cig in 48 hours i must say...oh ... it was glorious. now i have received all the "squares" I'm going to get until Sunday. a depressing thought to the common smoker. you see in a chess game, first you set up you pieces then plan and carry out minor attacks to cripple the opponent, then plan and set up for the final attack witch if you have planed correctly will give the verdict of a "checkmate". with this theory in mind i have planed to kick the nicotine in the groin thus exposing all vital organs for a full on attack. that's right you've guessed it. (you probably haven't but its ok I'll keep talking anyway) if my plan has been planed correctly ??? (and it is) i should have checkmate within the following week! some might say that i was pretty "friendly" with my last "nicotine injection" 'keep your enemy's closer right? don't say anything (not even to me) for you might jinks it, and this is one of my few chances.

after re-reading that last section I'm not sure it makes much sense but oh well,

Quitin' Smoking

hey everyone my name is Cameron, I'm sure you've all heard of me threw all the important ppl's blogs. this is also my first blog so please be patient with me as I'm sure i don't have any "skill" in this.
Well recently i decided, to quit smoking and have had great moral support threw my friends. Jorden is probably the least lucky of them, he's been stuck listening to me bitch about a cig all day long. you see originally i quit smoking cold turkey and lasted about two weeks then the withdraws got pretty bad. FUCK its hard to quit this shit. but I'm doing a lot better than i thought i would so i give my self minimal credit. So while i was in the middle of bitching about a smoke to Jorden he suggested that i write my "complaints" down in a blog to see if that would help. so far nothing but we'll see where it leads. (sorry you'll have to excuse my A.D.D. if your going to continue reading about my adventurers.) so me and Sam made a deal that i could smoke a cig every 48 hours... ...
i could go for one now. guess I'll have to settle for mt. dew, i have one but if i smoke it I'll be "dry" for another .. 47 hours. so looking out for myself I'm not letting myself smoke you see. you know Doctors used to prescribe certain brands of cigarettes? said it was actually "healthy" for you. what happened? when i started smoking i NEVER thought I'd someday have such an attachment to them, so non-smokers learn from me. Jorden occasionally tells me how tempting it is, or how good the smell is. (it is glorious) but as a friend i don't want him to be tied down by the same chain, and it is a chain. you cant run as fast or nearly as far. lol cant believe I'm laughing about it ether. then part of me argues its my choice, I'm an adult and I'm choosing to smoke, I'm old enough to buy them, its my money, its my habit, like drinking mt. dew, you want one? have one. "i want a cig, I'll have one, there in my jacket, all i have to do is walk over and take one." so i end up going out to smoke one and as soon as i get a few ..ha... glorious drags into it i no longer have the cravings. so i barley finish it. (outside the fact that i smell bad the rest of the day and in mormonville i have to put up with the stares, (ya i notice them too)) so no you don't want any of this, no matter how much you think you do. and this is why i know i need to quit, so i ask everyone for there patients, i am trying, and it is difficult, and I'm almost there. this is the last leg/hurdle/obstacle/note/ or any other stupid word for it, the point is I'm close. i have the desire, and i will be a "non-smoker" here shortly (SO GET OFF MY ASS!) just need some more time and any friendly encouragement i can get. thanks guys!