Quitin' Smoking

hey everyone my name is Cameron, I'm sure you've all heard of me threw all the important ppl's blogs. this is also my first blog so please be patient with me as I'm sure i don't have any "skill" in this.
Well recently i decided, to quit smoking and have had great moral support threw my friends. Jorden is probably the least lucky of them, he's been stuck listening to me bitch about a cig all day long. you see originally i quit smoking cold turkey and lasted about two weeks then the withdraws got pretty bad. FUCK its hard to quit this shit. but I'm doing a lot better than i thought i would so i give my self minimal credit. So while i was in the middle of bitching about a smoke to Jorden he suggested that i write my "complaints" down in a blog to see if that would help. so far nothing but we'll see where it leads. (sorry you'll have to excuse my A.D.D. if your going to continue reading about my adventurers.) so me and Sam made a deal that i could smoke a cig every 48 hours... ...
i could go for one now. guess I'll have to settle for mt. dew, i have one but if i smoke it I'll be "dry" for another .. 47 hours. so looking out for myself I'm not letting myself smoke you see. you know Doctors used to prescribe certain brands of cigarettes? said it was actually "healthy" for you. what happened? when i started smoking i NEVER thought I'd someday have such an attachment to them, so non-smokers learn from me. Jorden occasionally tells me how tempting it is, or how good the smell is. (it is glorious) but as a friend i don't want him to be tied down by the same chain, and it is a chain. you cant run as fast or nearly as far. lol cant believe I'm laughing about it ether. then part of me argues its my choice, I'm an adult and I'm choosing to smoke, I'm old enough to buy them, its my money, its my habit, like drinking mt. dew, you want one? have one. "i want a cig, I'll have one, there in my jacket, all i have to do is walk over and take one." so i end up going out to smoke one and as soon as i get a few ..ha... glorious drags into it i no longer have the cravings. so i barley finish it. (outside the fact that i smell bad the rest of the day and in mormonville i have to put up with the stares, (ya i notice them too)) so no you don't want any of this, no matter how much you think you do. and this is why i know i need to quit, so i ask everyone for there patients, i am trying, and it is difficult, and I'm almost there. this is the last leg/hurdle/obstacle/note/ or any other stupid word for it, the point is I'm close. i have the desire, and i will be a "non-smoker" here shortly (SO GET OFF MY ASS!) just need some more time and any friendly encouragement i can get. thanks guys!