caution: i have absolutely no idea what I'm about to blog to you about, normally i have something worth writing or thinking about but tonight i suddenly draw a blank. there are times that i could "blog" like no other. don't get me wrong i can think of somethings to blog about but when you edit in the things i wont tell the computer and things you don't want to... well .. fuck that- put your seat belts on and your hands in the air here we go! ok let me lay down some stupid background so you know where I'm coming from, I'm use to being single, i don't have a girlfriend all the time. and I'm perfectly fine with that. i have learned to depend on myself, and i know i can trust myself. i wont let myself down. so i rarely open up to other ppl. you know like a significant other, its not worth letting my self down again. so we went to the mall the other day, to meet a friend i had recently made on my yearbook. well she turned out to be alittle different than i expected, and i think I'm going to leave it at that. but i really don't think I'm going to open up for a long time, this was kinda a trial run if you will just to see ... well if i was ready i guess, but i don't think i was. (clears throat) so I've had sometime to think about life, turns out its an interesting place, doesn't surprise me as often as it used to but every now and then it gets me. do you need a certain gene to blog cuz i don't think i have the right one, its just my open thoughts. i cant help but feel like I'm wasting my time writing them and some poor fool is wasting his time reading them. (sorry) there are so many things i wish i could tell you. silly computer you don't have my trust yet, and its not looking good. point is, i started this blog to help me quit smoking. and I've accomplished that. i don't really want this blog to die but I'm not sure what to blog about anymore, i never had a blog before. i could tell you about me eventful love life? ha ha, or my daily adveners trying not to clumsily hurt myself? i could tell you about the nightmares i still have? or maybe my thoughts about my family? maybe S,S, and,S? or my D,H, and A? but i seriously doubt any of you are even interested. and i don't think there worth the invisible paper it takes to type them on. witch brings us back to the beginning.
thanks again
Cam, your silly. I read all of your blogs no matter the randomness content. I just like seeing what's going on in your head.
ReplyDeleteAnd, as I always loved telling you when I was actually coming over more often, your so freaking amusing lol, how could I not want to read this? =)
Miss you much.